I realize that revealing my secret to recent weight loss
might have some of you view me differently or stop reading but it’s a risk I
have to take. I promised you, dear
reader, that I would be real and honest.
Here it goes. I eat a low-carbohydrate
and low-sugar diet. I exercise 3-4 days
per week alternating cardio and weight training. I also take drugs. Skerrrrrt. I’m prescribed, by my doctor, an appetite
suppressant and a serotonin-effecting drug that aid in my weight loss. I know what some of you might be thinking,
“She’s a cheater!” I have just three
words for any of you naysayers out there, go fuck yourselves. Sorry, Mom.
Until you’ve tipped the scales at nearly 300 lbs., have tried and failed
every diet under the sun, or have struggled with your weight and food addiction
for your entire life, you don’t get an
opinion. Yes, I take prescription
drugs but I wouldn’t be successful if that’s all I did. My ability to lose 65 lbs. over the last 6
months is because of my hard work, dedication and sweat. I’ve changed a lot of bad habits over this
time period and I fight every day to be better.
I fight the 4:30 a.m. alarm clock, I fight the urge to drink my morning
diet coke and I fight the voice inside my head that whispers, “Donuts. Chips.
Ice cream. Cupcakes,” on constant rotation.
In my former life, I drank a diet coke or coke zero,
recently, for breakfast every morning without fail. I would get wicked headaches by 10 a.m. if I
skipped it. I rationalized this bad
behavior by comparing it to my coworker’s morning coffee. At lunch, I would have another 1-2 DCs and
would usually cram another in around my 3:30 p.m. crash. My water to diet coke ratio per day was about
a 4 to 2. It’s actually disgusting to
think about. Now, I can’t drink ANYTHING
caffeinated without the risk of losing sleep that night. I do average about 1 DC per week and I do drink
it when I mix with alcohol to avoid anything sugary. Other than that, it’s water all day
long. I average about twelve 8 oz.
glasses per day, which equates to peeing like every five minutes. Girl on a diet problems.
In my former life, it wasn’t unusual to order in a sandwich
(with chips!) for lunch or to run to a nearby fast food place. It’s not the food that I miss, it’s the
convenience. Now my meals have to be
pre-planned and taking a quick lunch is eating a homemade salad at my
desk. I really do miss sandwiches
though. Jimmy Johns: Hunter’s Club w/
BBQ chips, a diet coke and a cookie.
Ughhhhhh. Some of you might not
know what Jimmy John's is but it’s a sub shop and the sandwiches are served on
this amazingly fluffy white French bread.
For some reason the Hellman’s mayo that they use just tastes better,
too. Tangent, sorry. It also wouldn’t be rare for me to make a
cupcake, cookie or ice cream run when having a bad day at work. At my last office, we would make daily treat
runs to perk the staff back up. I got so used to those snack times that it was a hard habit to break.
So, yes, I do have help to keep me on track, however, these
prescriptions do not define me or my journey.
I don’t think I’ve had an easier time because of them and I certainly
wouldn’t be as successful if I solely relied on them. I’ve upped my activity and changed my
eating. At the root of it, that’s what
will keep me going after the drugs are gone.
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