On my path of choosing happiness, I slowly realize that I need to let go of a lot of negative things I’ve been holding onto from the past. I’m going to quote a very famous Carrie (Bradshaw) here, “Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.” While the primary route of my happy is through physical well-being, this journey has spurred me to seek emotional and spiritual well-being, too. I’m going for a balanced happiness, if you will. Recently, I’ve been finding myself extremely emotional at the slightest things. One morning, on the way home from the gym, I started crying. I was so tired and felt so accomplished. There were all these emotions stirring inside me that tears began to fall. I’ve undergone some major changes on this journey. If you’ve ever finally been successful at something you thought was impossible then you can relate. Have you ever hit rock bottom with fear of not being able to get back up? Have you ever buried yourself so deep into something that you couldn’t see the light anymore? I reached the point where I gave up. I gave up thinking that I would ever change because it was just going to be too hard and too much work. I rationalized that I was going to be fat forever and believed that being obese was how I was supposed to live life. Finally, with a little push from Fireball shots and a friend, came my ah-ha moment. To turn it around and realize I was wrong for so long is emotional. To sacrifice what I have and to devote my entire life to this journey is emotional. To finally stand up and say aloud that I deserve better is emotional. To find the strength to climb out of that deep hole, fill it back with dirt and start at ground level is emotional. Therefore, I am emotional.
|Bye bye negative!|
Anyone else need a match?