Thursday, March 10, 2016

Accountability is the New Black

This is the picture that broke me.  This photo, of me on Tower of Terror at Disney, was what made me want to jump start my healthy life again.  I have 3 chins and an embarrassing muffin top (I named her Mindy).  This picture shows the 30 lbs.  I can't be that girl again.  I was more terrified seeing this photo on the screen at the end of the ride than I was on the actual ride.

Many of you reach out and tell me how awesome/inspiring/motivating I am--again, thank you--but some of you haven't caught on by now that I'm human.  I mess up, I fall off the wagon and I eat dessert (sometimes twice!).  I promise, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.  You're not the only one who can't wake up and go to the gym without someone stabbing you with a branding iron.  You're not the only one who has to use his/her hands as blinders as you walk past the bakery section at the grocery store.  I've been there.  I've been you--shit, I AM you.

I decided to do a hard reset and do another juice cleanse.  This would be my 4th cleanse in a year and each round I don't think I'm going to make it and then I miraculously do.  I did a 3-day BluePrint Cleanse.  No, I don't do these cleanses to lose weight, although it is an added perk.  I do these to remind my body what it's like to truly be hungry and to convince my brain that it doesn't need so many calories to survive.  Also, YOU FEEL SO FREAKING SKINNY.  I started on Monday, cheated with 2 slices of cucumber Tuesday, and totally ate a baked potato yesterday, the last day.  I wanted it so bad and it's all I could think about.  I lost a total of 5 lbs. and woke up today feeling like I could run a marathon.  Also, I exercised on Monday and Wednesday, which I usually shy away from while cleansing.  I developed a nasty little habit of drinking coffee every day so the withdraw headaches were intense this week.  I need to start seeing this as an occasional treat.  The caffeine, creamer and aspartame aren't great for me so I'm going to try to stay away as long as I can stand it.  Juicing cuts out dairy and protein and I'm trying to make it through the weekend keeping that up.  My skin looks amazing and my gut feels good.  Positives all around!  This was exactly what I needed. 

I understand this isn't for everyone but I challenge you to do something you believe isn't possible.  I complain constantly during the cleanse that I'm not going to make it but I always do!  I meal prepped last night to get me through the next few days post-cleanse.  My fridge is full of homemade cabbage soup, non-dairy yogurt, fresh fruit, and fresh veggies.

I finally feel ready to get my eating back in order.  I'm motivated and desperately need my shorts to fit as it's supposed to hit 90 degrees soon!  My friends (love y'all!!!!) are keeping me accountable and I'm pushing them, too.  Join our movement.  Be healthy today.  Go for a walk, eat well, and take care of YOU.

Do it.  

Love, Sarah

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